sorry i'm being so childish

maaf udah mulai semuanya duluan. i'm all wrong. known. yet you don't have to forgive me. is this what you want right? ended this friendship in unilateral. i've been doing it so many times. sorry for making you have to aware me all the time, tired, i know. but you don't even know what i've done behind you, yeah you don't even care, about me at all. kaya yang lo fikir gue lakuin ke lo. "pengen dilupain enak ga?" "jujur sih gaenak, tp kalo dia nyaman kita mau gmn?" ok so i won't do anything. now its my turn, doing anything you did. i'm sorry. its hard yeah knowing you've been trying and all you get is enemy. sebenernya susah, maaf yg mention itu gue gatau juga itu ga kekirim ternyata masuk di draft sumpah gaboong. terus yg msn itu gue lg away makan maaf. gue tau kok lo gabakal ngalah lagi buat ngertiin, jd ya skrng gue aja yg ngertiin kalo yg lo mau kaya gitu, kalo itu bisa bikin hidup lo tenang. how come i get so childish.... i regret it, and its time, wouldn't turn back. maaf kalo gamau yaudah, gue tau lo gasuka dipaksa. yap gue orang paling jahat di dunia. nyampe 2 org aja ngomong mending gausah kenal gue dari awal, gapengen ngeliat muka gue, gapengen ketemu gue lagi. gue kira org org antagonis di sinetron tuh enak ngeliat org lain susah, tp nyatanya mereka sama susahnya ya kaya yg ngerasain sakit. em btw asal tau aja. hidup gabakal tenang kalo dimusuhi, kalo masih ga dimaafin sm org, sm kaya mati, dia gabakal diterima kalo blm dimaafin. sama kaya haji, dia bakal dpt balesannya dpt karma di sana pas masih ada org disini blm maafin dia. dan itu gue skrng haaha. kalo mau egois yap gue pgn bgt egois, tp gaboleh, kita udah smp. em gue kira kita udah smp, gue kira kita udah ga sd lg, tp yaudahlah gue juga yg mulai ini duluan. gue yg salah, semua juga gue